The Beginning

1/26/12: The overwhelmingness of my adult responsibilities results in me falling asleep on my couch, snuggled next to the comfort of the dog, at 7pm, missing my Board of Directors meeting that night.

A rundown of the day:

Today, my condescending bitch of a co-worker became mad at me because I wasn't in my office to answer her phone calls. (Where was I? She never asked. For the record, I was helping another co-worker in the main office. What did she need? She never actually told me.)

Today, I came home from work and had to lie down from dizziness due to withdrawal from one of my prescription antidepressants. I am currently rationing them because either my insurance or my pharmacy is incompetent & didn't fulfill my prescription, plus I have no money anyway.

Today, I drove 140 miles. In a single day. My normal commute is only 70. Yes, it was my own fault & was the only way to cover all my responsibilities, but I still found it overwhelming.

Today, I cancelled my dog's vet appointment this Saturday because I can't pay them anything until payday on Wednesday, February 1. (All I can think is, thank God this isn't an emergency and just a check-up.)

Today, I wrote this anonymously because I can't think of a single person who has the time to listen to everything I need to say right now. Even my counselor only does hour-long sessions...